I've always been told if you don't crash your not riding hard enough. The only way to learn is to give her hell and hold on, I've been to the ER multiple times during MX races and now feel comfortable and now I ride faster than I thought I ever would. Don't give up just take it step by step, I always tell new riders that your not going to clear every jump the first day, set your sights on one obstacle like the whoops and then just work on them ALL day, then the next day add on one more obstacle and so on. Before you know it you'll be zipping around the whole track. 
and the axelbolt went into my leg in two places 12 stiches 8 staples and a couple months later its almost all healed up and boy did i learn a lesson 
anyways glad your better and stick with the sport!!!
He was wheelying one day on his 2003 crf450r and went over way to far way to fast on a steep hill none the less. He did NOPT go to the ER but had huge portions of skin missing all over his body. 
